Empty, lost and confused, I had no idea where I would go or what I would be. I saw life as an endless cycle. You live, work, make some money, get married, have kids, and you die. I believed everyone would go to heaven unless you were really “bad”. So, I thought I was going to heaven, that I qualified. Besides, I’m cute, why wouldn’t God let me in. I was in complete ignorance.
I knew Jesus had died, but no one ever explained to me why. I was raised in a Catholic background, was baptized as a baby, and went through the CCE classes, which were to show me how to be a “good” Catholic. Through Junior High and High school, I attended many different churches and met with some members of these churches in order to fill the desire to know God, but none of them made sense to me. Turned off by their false teachings and lack of evidence to back up their beliefs, I pushed aside my interest and desire to know God. My life consisted of school, work, school, work, work, and more work.
Soon I attended college, because that’s where everyone said I should be. One day a close friend of mine told me I needed to attend her Bible study group. As a result, I learned that by putting my complete trust in the fact that Jesus Christ died on the cross to pay the penalty for all of my sins, I would be completely forgiven and have eternal life in heaven. Finally, I realized why Christ died, for it says in Isaiah 53:5 “But He was pierced through for our transgressions, He was crushed for our iniquities; the chastening for our well-being fell upon Him, and by His scourging we are healed.”
So now I have a purpose in life, which is to evangelize the spiritually lost, to build up believers spiritually, and to be Christ-like in character. I am no longer lost. I have found Christ. I am no longer empty and confused because I am now filled with the Holy Spirit, love, and the purpose for living. Now all I long to do is live for Him. As Philippians 1:21 says, “For to me to live is Christ, and to die is gain.”